A wedding

She's my best friend. She's getting married. We talk about it, I try to offer my ideas.

I always thought I'd be there for her on her special day - like she was for me. As a matter of fact, we had planned to be in each others weddings. She made good on her end of the deal - she was even here for a week in order to help me prepare. She never asked if I would be in hers.

Suddenly, she's in an incredible hurry to get married. Consequently, one of the dates she has picked is the weekend of my birthday. I told her I might not be able to make it. I expressed how much it would mean to me if I could be there for her as she was for me.

I got a response of "Well, if you aren't able to make it, I'll make sure lots of pictures are taken."

I know it's a lot to ask to hold off and maybe have your wedding on a different weekend. You're not willing to have it the weekend of your child's birthday - why should the person you hail as your sister be any different? (The venue isn't booked yet, so it's not like you're locked into anything.)

Maybe I'm just not seeing the whole picture. Maybe I thought we had a better friendship. Maybe my expectations are just too high and I've been fooling myself all these years.

*sigh*

I will try to be there... I really will. Hopefully it will be a possibility.